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18 March 2008!
Life is full of Ups and Downs, but still treasure your friends around you, as you never know what will happen the next breath you breathe. Accecpt what comes to you, may it be good or bad as everything happen for a purpose, dun just hide yourself to run away from it, but to move on and faces it eventhough its really not easy. Eventually, I believe you will see rainbow after the storm.Lastly, Life too short to be Unhappy!
Working hard to achieve the Goals and Dreams in Life!
Silly Gal, I Love You, I Really Do =)
10:45 PM
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Its Christmas!!
Merry Christmas to everyone~ and of cos TO MY DOG - CHRISTMAS~ CHRISTMAS MERRY CHRISTMAS~!! LOL~~ sigh lonely christmas i had~ staying at home and slp and stare at the com.. thinking of you~
yesterday meet joey and june at clark quay mrt at 11.. but they came like 11.45? -_-!!idiots~ LOL~ then headed to one of the pub at boat quay to meet joey's friends~ not long after we reach~ its the COUNTDOWN~ LOL~ the most fun part~ take spray and 5, 4, 3, 2, 1... MERRY CHRISTMAS~~~ SPRAY here SPRAY there~ haha~ everone went white~ had fun for awhile.. then sit down chat and drink~ all the way till 4+, then went over to lao pa sai to had our supper cum breakfast... LOL~ june's dad came to fetch us~ i went to joey's house to wait for my father to fetch me~ i tried to enjoy myself as mush as possible~ but dunno why, i seem not to enjoy myself alot though~ sigh~ by the time i reach joey house is 5.30~ my dad coming at 7, so i just sit there~ and the same thoughts came into my minds again~ acc my dad to eat breakfast and headed home to slp~
I hope I could spent the christmas with you~ even though the facts is we didnt.. but for me we did, cos every moment of the christmas~ you're always on my mind~
wont be at home from wed till friday~ going for camp at sentosa~ sigh~ this 3 days, just wanna forget everything~ and enjoy with my friends there ba~~ and i wil be missing you... so much....
6:09 PM
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the post today will be a damn long want, its about the event of like 3 days? didnt really sleep the past 3 nights~ okay here it go~
thursday night martinn, wf and i went to wk house to play mj, just 1 full "dong" we spent 6 hours~ LOL~ but cant blame la, martinn just learn, so we tone all night and never slp, get ourself ready in the morning and cab down to sch for the YEP camp~ reach school at like 8, true enough as soo wen say~ we are late!! supposedly meeting time is 7.15 at yck mrt~ =X LOL~
the camp is 2 days 1 night, from friday to sat, the camp had alot of lectures~ YAWN~~ and role play, team building and stuff like tt~ think the main purpose of this camp is to get to know each other, and the details we gonna do over there at Cambodia~ well get to know the others during the camp~ everyone is still alright, accept for 1or 2 person~ well, i was very very affected by some words a person said to me, it made me really felt like i'm a loser~ until now i felt very troubled, very worried, and somehow very confused~ sigh~ dun wish to elaborate here in blog~ but i know one thing~ i still have lots of great friend around me that is supporting me, with that, it really comfort me somehow, thank you =) we end the camp earlier~ the plan was at 5pm, but we end at 1pm~ haha alot earlier, i was very tired cos i didnt had sleep for like 2 nights~ so i straight away take cab home and slp~ at last for some 3- 4 hours~ its better than nothing~ had to wake up at 6pm and prepare for sherlynn birthday party~
i woke up half an hour later than i plan to~ haha, i was too tired.. prepared and headed down to amk hub to meet soo wen, rena, martinn and sy... sherlynn birthday party held at scalet city~ a ktv lounge~ i arrived at 8pm then we called sherlynn to bring us in~ so we sit down chat and drink~ wk and syed come sometime later~ then at dunno wad time we sing and cut the cake~ wad i could sae is that sherlynn is blessed with a wonderful family and relative~ haha.. all of us enjoyed ourself i bet~ we sing, drink, chat, dance~ haha~ DANCE, its the first time i step on a real dance floor~ LOL~ I never really drink alot like wad she asked me to, if not i will be drunk already~ =) but i'm just very tired due to lack of sleep the past few days and the thoughts that is going on and on in my head~ we stayed till like 3am~ then everone headed some except rena, martinn and myself, we went over to wk house again to mj~ this time teaching rena~ LOL! soo wen wanted to join us but cant due to some reason~ its okay we will play together somedays~ =) ordered mac when we reach his house~ eat and play till 8+ this time better abit~ 4 hours 1 full "dong" haha and rena is a fast learner~ LOL~ martinn dad came to fetch us at around 9+, i reach home around 10+ and i completely drop dead on the bed~ with the same thoughts going on and on in my head.........
7:01 PM
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test is over~ so its slack life now! kind of boring also~ wad i'm doing this dew days is, at home watch movie, watch anime, play game, sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep~ lol~ but feeling still quite shiok la..
haiz~ sometimes i really wish i could stay in my dreamland forever and ever~ thats how i feel~ sick of the real world~ YAWN~ but no choice, Derek, u still have to move on and fullfill the dreams and goals in ur life.. lol~ and remember wad u always told urself...
anyway, i think there is near to impossible for us to be tgt, at least for now, afterall, u're still attached... perhaps the future will be different? who knows~ if we really aren't meant to be tgt, i hope we still can be close friend ba =) i will still be there for you~ like i always tell you =) take care of urself and goodnight~ missing you~
i somehow miss the days we rot in the middle of the night around bedok, play pool, swimming, sing song talk cork play mahjong, ji siao teacher, ji siao ppl in school~ kanna ji siao also~ LOL~ cos we've been doing that for like 4 - 5 years tgt? lol~ the few standard de, yk, ah meng, birdie, ah seng, ayam, shorty, bamboo ~ lol~ hope to meet up soon~
3:47 AM
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slept till 2+pm today~ then went to find my mum with my dad and sister... they went to have health check up at one of the church in bedok~ i check as well, lol~ and i'm perfectly FINE~ haha..
after that went to had lunch together, then went to had my hair cut with my sister, headed home to sleep till 10pm, then dota 1 match...
silly gal~ i enjoy every little moment i spend with you, and i truly cherish it =) wat i can do now is to wait~ and let fate and time to decide ba.... missing you =)
3:10 AM
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ITS OVER~
at last~ all the paper is over~!! haha~~ wanted to blog yesterday, but i reached home like 6am? hen slp till 2 then go out until now~ haha.. test is over, i should actually feel relieve~ but i dunno why, i dun really feel very happy~ sigh, mixture of feeling~~
we study in sch in the afternoon, cos the paper yesterday was at 4.30~ after the paper everyone go their separate way, train down to city hall with martinn, he meeting his friend there also, i meeting joey , and that idiot, while waiting for me, got this tourism from Pakistan ask him where is melion park~ so he bo liao, bring her there~ he told me meet together and bring her to eat dinner... though he was joking~ then when i reach, its for real... I JI TAO PENG~ so we bring her to lao pa sai see her eat, then walk her back to mrt, she going zoo~ LOL~ but okay la, did something good at least.. haha..
after that joey and i went to eat dinner at suntec, ate ramen at a jap restaurant, its damn not nice to eat~ lol~ then meet june at raffles city, walk and talk, then decide to go june house, very long never see her dad also liao. LOL~ so headed to her house.. anyway brother, dun get too sad over it, you will find a better one =)
something very unexpected happen~ i saw soo wen in the train~ LOL~ dot~~ its really very coincidence la.. its really so qiao lor~ haha...
around 2+ something bad happen, but silly gal, he is not worthy of ur tears, dun even sae hurting urself~ please dun ever do that again!! a gal like you who cherish a relationship deserve the love u should get, and not that~!!! please take care of urself~
was worring about her that i cant even slp~ joey and june watching dunno wad movie, and i was just staring blankly at the screen thinking of her~ until 5am+ my dad called to pick me home~ was too tired by then, went straight to sleep when i got home.. cos we meeting at 3pm at expo to see soo wen~ got cosplay event at expo, and soo wen dress herself up as one of a charter in an anime~ saw other anime character as well, bleach, naruto etc...
after that headed to dhoby ghuat, attendance of today is soo wen, sherlynn, rena, mee keat, martinn, shuen yew, wen fa and yong shun~ wee keat meeting his friend for movie, actually we are wathcing tgt with his friend, but then sherlynn cant go home too late, so we decide not to watch, and accompany her shopping~~ sherlynn~ just for you~ haha.. we are very good right!! haha~ before that we walk and slack around plaza sing, until wee keat friend come, he and rena went off, the rest of us walk and slack again~ haha, sherlynn bought a skin for her hp.. lol~ then we walk her off to mrt, then the remainding people went outside cathy to slack until 11.30~ everyone went home after that, actually wanted to go wk house to MJ~ but short of one ppl~ haha next time ba...~ train home with martinn and now blogging~~
12:40 AM
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3rd PAPER DOWN~~
3rd paper is OVER~ left 1 more to go and that is tml~!!! LOL~~ TODAY PAPER SUCKS~!!! argh~~ i think i gonna flank this paper~ shit!!! but i still did my best la.. LOL~ nvm its over~ damn it..
after the paper we had our lunch at amk hub~ then went to buy contact lenses~ 5 of us bought together, soo wen, sherlynn, martinn, shuen yew and myself, i got sky blue de~ haha~ after that header to mac, the drive through one again... wanted to study~ but in the end~ slack all the way.. i ji tao no mood to study la~~ lol~ then martinn and i try the contact lense.. martinn took like 3+ hours to put it in~ LOL~ his first time la, its like tt one.. then we eat and talk, when going off he took like 30mins to take it out~~ LOL~ DOT~ dun laugh la.. so bad... HAHA~ went off around 6+pm..
tml paper will be at 4pm.. so we meeting at 11am to study~ haha.. YAWN~~ STUDY STUDY STUDY~ after that going to meet joey and maybe zi jian~~
Its the first time i send her home... even though her house is quite far from mine.. but i dun mind~~ =) and hope that sms i send you will happen one day.. =) i'm waiting.. let fate decide our future ba.. looking forward to it =) missing you~
8:32 PM
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2nd PAPER DOWN~
haha~ Electrics Principles today~ hmmm.. 1 and a half hour is like not enough for the paper la~ damn~~ then got some question see liao STUNT~ SIAN~ but i still did my best la.. scared alot careless mistake~ hope i did well though~ haha
after the paper we went to eat lunch, then wee keat and shuen yew went to collect keyboard, i bought a Happy Trees Friends t-shirt, lol, then went to find tutorial room to STUDY again~~ YAWN~~ wanted to change into the shirt, tried but is damn small~ DOT~ so i went to change.. haha.. thanks to marcus for teaching us again.. after sitting still studying for awhile~ everyone went wild~ LOL~ we started playing raping game~ sound wrong~ LOL!! but okay la we enjoy it, not those kind of rape though~ dun anyhow think.... LOL~
around 5+ all of us no mood to study liao, so headed to mrt, everyone went home, left only me, soo wen, sherylnn and shuen yew~ snce soo wen and sherlynn wont study when they get home, so we decided on going to sy house, at least they will revise something, sy had his tuition, and the 3 of us study in the living room.. true enough they really studied abit and off 3 of us went to zZzZ... LOL~ but for awhile only la, then wake up liao, by then sy ended his tuition, so went into his room, slacked and study.. sherlynn left at 9+, then me and soo wen went of 10mins after she left, my daddy fetch her to marsilling mrt station, cos she insist on not telling me her address, she shyne, dun wanna ma fan my daddy, LOL~ silly gal~~~
after that went home, bloody bad jam at TPE, from kallang all the way to bedok~ DOT~~~ reach home at 11.45.. YAWN~~ gonna slp after blogging~~ haha
2 more paper to go before HOLIDAY~~~~ will be quite busy in the 2 weeks.. haha~ looking forward to it~
If I had know you earlier, that will be great~ I cherish the little time we spend together, and treasure the little secret we had, even if its nonsense.. =) i miss you~
12:02 AM
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Another Day Of Studying~~
YAWN~~~ study again~ reach school around 3+, meeting time is 12 =X LOL~ was too lazy to wake up la, if not for Martinn i think i will slp till like night?? LOL~
since i wanna ta bao lunch back to tutorial room to eat, i called them to ask wad they wan.. call martinn and its so noisy over the phone.. all shout wan this wan that. .LOL~ dot.. so ask martinn come down help me.. in the end we bought 9 cups of corns and 9 cup of bubble tea.. studied till like 6+, then the cleaner chase us out.. LOL~
headed to ang mo kio mac, the one with drive through de~ ate our dinner then continue studying... just 2 question make all of us pissed~ its like so difficult la.. and that question is those on first question de.. DOT~ until around 10, all of us headed home, martinn dad send me home..
tml will be the 2nd paper~ then 2 more paper to go and its HOLIDAY~~ HOHOHO~ tml after the paper gonna chiong study again~ LOL!~ SO YAWN~~
I'm somehow very happy now~ hahaha =) cant slp liao la!! LOL~ later tml i cant wake up i blame you hor!!! =P
11:31 PM
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1 PAPER DOWN!!
woot~ 1 paper is down~~ maths is OVER~ for now though -_-! lol.. next is electrical principle, analogue electronics and programming~~ then we going to have 2 weeks of holiday~ HOHO~
today paper was alright, at least i am able to finish up all the question i expected to answer on time, but i'm afraid there will be alot of careless mistake.. haha.. nvm la, i tried my best..
after that we had our lunch then stay in sch to studies, wenfa and marcus taught us AE on the board, haha, at the end of the day, their affort is not wasted, at least we now know something about AE compare to before they teach.. haha.. until 6+ all the others went home, left soo wen, sherlynn, rena, wee keat , martinn and myself. we had big feat again for dinner...
tml gonna meet out to study again, time and place not set yet... later gonna DOTA~ lol~
hmmm, sigh, i'm somehow lost, dunno wad should i do, dunno wad the result will be like, dunno wad you think, dunno how you feel about it... i'm confuse, afraid, worried... but still i love you.. but i really hope afterall all this is worth it, and things will go the way i wish for... sigh... well, Derek, what meant to be yours will be yours, whats not, let it be ba, i always tell that to myself, but of cos i will try my best... Derek jia you~ =)
11:01 PM
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A Day Of Studying
YAWN~!! study study study~ test test test.. YAWN~ haha but wad to do, as a student, thats what we must do.. YAWNNNNNNNNNNN~~
as we planned, they came to my ouse to study today, time set at 12pm.. the earliest is soo wen and sherlynn, but it still late like half an hour, the rest is worst~ LOL~ so we slack and walk around bedok inter, since they never come to bedok before.. haha.. after that sy came, then wk and rena, at i think the time is like 2+pm~ DOT~ haha, had our lunch then headed to my house.. at my house we slack and talk, and my christmas is the center of attraction of the day~ LOL~ until around 4+ then we start studying.. by then martinn just nice arrived.. haha.. so we mug and mug and mug till 7+, we send sherlynn off as she got something on, then we had our dinner, back home to mug and mug again.. till 10+ everybody is so tried of studying.. YAWN~ so we basically slack and study alot today la.. LOL~ like that then balance mah.. =P
tml going to sherlynn house to study.. STUDY~ YAWNNNNNNNNNNNN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ -_-!!! same goes for the next week, everyday must study study study, but after that~ HEHE~ ENJOY LOR~~
later going to play dota, waiting for everybody to reach home and online...
lastly, you look really really really nice.... =) you know wad i referring to la~ haha, and i meant wad i sae in the sms.. hehe~ the want something with the EYES de.. haha~
12:43 AM
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Plently Of Thoughts
went to school for just 2 hours of lesson, abit bo liao, but bo bian still have to go, after that went to eat Japanese food then headed home. actually wanan go chrystal house to stay with joey de, but im too lazy, and tml my friends coming to my house to study, so in the end both of us never go, sorry chrystal~ next time ba..
i dunno why, but theres plenty of thoughts in my mind nowadays, kind of emo and worried about this particular stuff, and Common Test and so on, sigh, i really hope in the end, everything will turn out fine, and really hope that it wont happen to me as to wad it happened to my friend, referring to that particular stuff that i'm worried about. sigh. life, love, friends, studies, future and so much more.. well, wadever it is, Derek just hang on, zho yi bu kan yi bu ba... and let natural take it cause.. afterrall life is too short to worried so much and be unhappy..
soo wen, sherlynn, wee keat, rena, martinn is coming to my house and study tml~ left two days to chiong liao, because monday is the start of the common test, and theres nobody at home tml... then sunday going to sherlynn house to study... Good luck to EC0719~
its 4am but i kind of cant slp today, dunno why, sigh, but still i should try to slp, must have the energy to study tml~
I hope, I really hope~~~
4:18 AM
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common test is next week!
just another week, its common test already!! but i still know nothing about AE!~~ argh~~
nothing much to blog about lately, went to wee keat house to watch movie "Excorist" or something, with martinn, soo wen, rena and sy.. the movie is not bad, something related to Christianity.. we ordered cannadian pizza for dinner, after that went home.. haha
just finish a game of dota. haha, i'm still a dota noob~ nvm learning slowly... haha.. tml sch, soccer, then chionging study again.
somehow i'm missing you lately, haha.. but well, heaven is always playing tricks on me, she's attached.. haha~ sigh~ if only................... ( I guess theres very slight possibility between us, no matter wad i will still try )
2:03 AM
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went to meet chrystal and joey yesterday night, went to clark quay, since i'm there, theres no reason i shouldn't relax myself, so i drink and its joey's friend's birthday also, if nv drink like very werid la, we enjoy ourself till 3+am then go home. reach home around 4.30, straight away slp, cos need to wake up at 6am, meaning i had less than 2 hours of slp and have to go for tournement. Though i know its a wrong choice to make staying out till so late and drinking, but still i enjoy myself.it been age since the 3 of us gather. Haha.
Martinn called me at 6, then soo wen gave me so many missed call after martinn hang up.. -_-! haha thanks both of you. feel really weak and unwell, but no choice, had to pick myself up for the match. well, we lose at the quater final, i think the cause of lose is partly my fault, my mouth is so damn dry, so tired, but i tried my best till the quater final already. sorry everyone~ but still i think we did great, its also my honour playing with A4 and made our way till quater final, we will try again next year. soo wen cried because we lose, silly gal.. haha.. but this show they cared for us la.. =) EC0719 =)
After that syed drive all of us to toa pao yeo to hve our lunch, and he headed to meet his gf. we settle down at pizza hut, i went home when we are at pizza hut. cos really very tired le, mouth very dry, restless, strengthless, so i cab home. sorry again that i cant join you guys..
9:51 PM
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